For many years i've struggled with cutting. Yes i can stop for months but once i'm depressed i reach for it every time. It's apart of me that i'm trying to stop. It was way worst before i meet dom and once we started going out i felt happy and i didnt feel like doing it anymore until we got into a fight or broke up. I love him I know that I know I wont ever be able to get over him. but lately ive been thinking about it more and more. I'm trying not to because my mom found out recently and I'm already in enough trouble with my parents I really dnt want to get to a mently hospital. This is the 5th time this day I thought about cutting and I'm happy i cant find my razor bc I'll go for it... I'm happy my room is a mess but im searching for it and I'm scared... I know january 15th is going to be a bad day for me and i know i will that day and i'm trying to stop but i cant.. its either this or i wont eat... I love food but when i get like this i cant eat or ill cut.. im trying not to i really am. but its getting closer and closer to the day that i will

My Heart.

I know after you I could never love again. I've been with you my whole highschool life basically and I can't get over you. You may call this obsessed but It's love. Call my naive but I fell in love at a young age. There's plenty out there you might say, But I can't do that to you because I love only one. I might try to get over you but I'm leading other guys on. I hate that I cant get over you. You're the one that stole my heart and ran away with it.

christmas yess!

I dont wanna feel the pain anymore

I'm out...

Im finally out of my house! thank you yvonne!

I can't take living here

I need to get out I can't take it in this place. I just want to get away from it all I can't take my family at all I'm going fucking insane

My day sucks

When all I do is think about you when I'm with a boy that I'm trying to think about to get over you. Ugh why can't I get over you

I'm going to end you being your murderer

You are driving me insane. Really let me fucking be you can't control me. Go ahead call chins call the police I'll be outta this house anyways. I fucking hate you.

Your Forever Is All I Need

I don't get it. You hug me like you miss me. You torture me like you want me. You look at me like you want to say sorry. But you fuck with my ex-friends.. I love you. I wont forget you. It's either you were in love or you never were in love. And being in love you never forget the person. I love you and you stole my heart. that backstabbing bitch of a friend you are using. Why? why would you hurt me like that.

The fuck

You're suppose to be my friend and you're all over the guy that i love. kay your a bitch. I cant wait until karma kicks you in the ass. He's using you for sex I hope you know. How do I know because I find out many things. How because we have one person basically. Why because we legit like the same thing. Whore I over power you 100% don't mess with me.

Always you

I can't get you off my mind and it sucks. I try. I go on dates with other guys but it's always you I'm thinking about. You with girls that breaks my heart.

I can't stop.

No matter how hard I try. You are there. You're not there for me. But you're there. I help you with everything and anything and you still treat me like crap. Like the fuck... I love you. I can honestly say that but you don't know how to treat people. You've changed and it sucks... and I legit found the perfect guy. But I still think of you. I don't have feelings for anyone but you it hurts.

Youre always on my mind.

24/7.. Every minute every second every hour every day. It's all about you and it sucks. Like you've killed me.. completely shattered all hope for happiness for me.. I fake being happy now. Yet I still think about you. I would do anything for you. Why can't I turn around and scream at you. Why cant I just say no to you.. I love you... I want to say those words again. I hate this dating thing. I hate seeing other people because I only care for you. Trying to get you off my mind is hard.. Extremly Impossible. Why can't you be a nice guy like you were freshman year. What happened to that boy I met. What happened to the kindheart guy I was headoverheels in. but wait I still am while you walk all over me.

This day kills me.

I don't know what to feel anymore. I dont know. I love you and you toyed with me. I gave you everything I had and you tossed it on the ground like trash. I will do anything for you and you just used me. I'm nothing. I never was anything. I have never been something to someone. "You're perfect, You're everything to me." You say this to me and then take everything back when shit goes south. You want to dick me around. I was NOTHING to you. and i will never be anything.

I'm the doll that guys love to toy with.

I won the I love you more competition between us...

This sucks... I gave you everything... Even my heart... which you still have... I Still ONLY want YOU and it sucks.. All these guys I'm turning down bc i only like you... When you put your arm around me i want you to keep doing it... When you hug me... Please hug me for a long time... We you offer me food... Feed me... Tickling me<3 I miss us I miss you... I love you... and its always gunna stay that way.. I get jealous I know I'm trying to control that but youre not mine and it breaks my heart.. Believe in love again please... I'm sorry about your family but I was always there.. I dont get what i did to deserve this to deserve the constant She's insane... shes crazy.. Just because i love you doesnt mean I'm crazy.... we were going out for like 2 years.. yes i'll be crazy if it was only like a month or two but it isnt like that... You said it yourself. "I want to marry you"... I remember those words you said. I remember everything... It was your kid too you know.. stop turning your back on the ones that love you

My Heart Has Been Shattered.. Only You Can Do Something About It

I understand you only wanna be friends. But why do you keep flirting with me. I never see you grab someone else's face like you grab mine. I've never seen you hipcheck anyone else but me. It's just because of your family problems isn't it? If they weren't constantly fighting you would believe in love... in us... I'll wait for you... because I love you.

haskufhak

It sucks.. Talking to you. I just want to scream out that I love you and want you back into my life. Yet I know you don't. It's sad really. You lie to your friends and me. I don't even know what the truth is anymore. I don't know whats going on in your head. Why can't we go back to how things were. You and me snuggling. I don't like anyone else. I just love you. I want to be able to call you mine. play with your hair. be like damn right that boys mine. be able to cuddle with you on your bed. i miss us. I miss knowing the years we've been together.. I miss feeling like we were already married. like you said to me.

I&apos;m not myself.

It's not my first time. But I promised myself I would never do it again...This weekend I was gone. I don't know what was going on. I was baked.. I was drunk... And yet I still thought about you. I couldn't get you outta my head. It sucks! I didn't know what was going on but I could think about you and how much I love you and want you to come back to me. Even though I know that it will never happened again. You were the guy that stole my heart. It's to late to ask for it back. It will never truely be mine again.

I miss you

I don't feel anything anymore.
I don't like anyone...
I love you..
But I'm so empty inside..
Love me..