For many years i've struggled with cutting. Yes i can stop for months but once i'm depressed i reach for it every time. It's apart of me that i'm trying to stop. It was way worst before i meet dom and once we started going out i felt happy and i didnt feel like doing it anymore until we got into a fight or broke up. I love him I know that I know I wont ever be able to get over him. but lately ive been thinking about it more and more. I'm trying not to because my mom found out recently and I'm already in enough trouble with my parents I really dnt want to get to a mently hospital. This is the 5th time this day I thought about cutting and I'm happy i cant find my razor bc I'll go for it... I'm happy my room is a mess but im searching for it and I'm scared... I know january 15th is going to be a bad day for me and i know i will that day and i'm trying to stop but i cant.. its either this or i wont eat... I love food but when i get like this i cant eat or ill cut.. im trying not to i really am. but its getting closer and closer to the day that i will

My Heart.

I know after you I could never love again. I've been with you my whole highschool life basically and I can't get over you. You may call this obsessed but It's love. Call my naive but I fell in love at a young age. There's plenty out there you might say, But I can't do that to you because I love only one. I might try to get over you but I'm leading other guys on. I hate that I cant get over you. You're the one that stole my heart and ran away with it.

christmas yess!

I dont wanna feel the pain anymore

I'm out...

Im finally out of my house! thank you yvonne!

I can't take living here

I need to get out I can't take it in this place. I just want to get away from it all I can't take my family at all I'm going fucking insane

My day sucks

When all I do is think about you when I'm with a boy that I'm trying to think about to get over you. Ugh why can't I get over you

I'm going to end you being your murderer

You are driving me insane. Really let me fucking be you can't control me. Go ahead call chins call the police I'll be outta this house anyways. I fucking hate you.

Your Forever Is All I Need

I don't get it. You hug me like you miss me. You torture me like you want me. You look at me like you want to say sorry. But you fuck with my ex-friends.. I love you. I wont forget you. It's either you were in love or you never were in love. And being in love you never forget the person. I love you and you stole my heart. that backstabbing bitch of a friend you are using. Why? why would you hurt me like that.

The fuck

You're suppose to be my friend and you're all over the guy that i love. kay your a bitch. I cant wait until karma kicks you in the ass. He's using you for sex I hope you know. How do I know because I find out many things. How because we have one person basically. Why because we legit like the same thing. Whore I over power you 100% don't mess with me.

Always you

I can't get you off my mind and it sucks. I try. I go on dates with other guys but it's always you I'm thinking about. You with girls that breaks my heart.

I can't stop.

No matter how hard I try. You are there. You're not there for me. But you're there. I help you with everything and anything and you still treat me like crap. Like the fuck... I love you. I can honestly say that but you don't know how to treat people. You've changed and it sucks... and I legit found the perfect guy. But I still think of you. I don't have feelings for anyone but you it hurts.

Youre always on my mind.

24/7.. Every minute every second every hour every day. It's all about you and it sucks. Like you've killed me.. completely shattered all hope for happiness for me.. I fake being happy now. Yet I still think about you. I would do anything for you. Why can't I turn around and scream at you. Why cant I just say no to you.. I love you... I want to say those words again. I hate this dating thing. I hate seeing other people because I only care for you. Trying to get you off my mind is hard.. Extremly Impossible. Why can't you be a nice guy like you were freshman year. What happened to that boy I met. What happened to the kindheart guy I was headoverheels in. but wait I still am while you walk all over me.

This day kills me.

I don't know what to feel anymore. I dont know. I love you and you toyed with me. I gave you everything I had and you tossed it on the ground like trash. I will do anything for you and you just used me. I'm nothing. I never was anything. I have never been something to someone. "You're perfect, You're everything to me." You say this to me and then take everything back when shit goes south. You want to dick me around. I was NOTHING to you. and i will never be anything.

I'm the doll that guys love to toy with.

I won the I love you more competition between us...

This sucks... I gave you everything... Even my heart... which you still have... I Still ONLY want YOU and it sucks.. All these guys I'm turning down bc i only like you... When you put your arm around me i want you to keep doing it... When you hug me... Please hug me for a long time... We you offer me food... Feed me... Tickling me<3 I miss us I miss you... I love you... and its always gunna stay that way.. I get jealous I know I'm trying to control that but youre not mine and it breaks my heart.. Believe in love again please... I'm sorry about your family but I was always there.. I dont get what i did to deserve this to deserve the constant She's insane... shes crazy.. Just because i love you doesnt mean I'm crazy.... we were going out for like 2 years.. yes i'll be crazy if it was only like a month or two but it isnt like that... You said it yourself. "I want to marry you"... I remember those words you said. I remember everything... It was your kid too you know.. stop turning your back on the ones that love you

My Heart Has Been Shattered.. Only You Can Do Something About It

I understand you only wanna be friends. But why do you keep flirting with me. I never see you grab someone else's face like you grab mine. I've never seen you hipcheck anyone else but me. It's just because of your family problems isn't it? If they weren't constantly fighting you would believe in love... in us... I'll wait for you... because I love you.

haskufhak

It sucks.. Talking to you. I just want to scream out that I love you and want you back into my life. Yet I know you don't. It's sad really. You lie to your friends and me. I don't even know what the truth is anymore. I don't know whats going on in your head. Why can't we go back to how things were. You and me snuggling. I don't like anyone else. I just love you. I want to be able to call you mine. play with your hair. be like damn right that boys mine. be able to cuddle with you on your bed. i miss us. I miss knowing the years we've been together.. I miss feeling like we were already married. like you said to me.

I&apos;m not myself.

It's not my first time. But I promised myself I would never do it again...This weekend I was gone. I don't know what was going on. I was baked.. I was drunk... And yet I still thought about you. I couldn't get you outta my head. It sucks! I didn't know what was going on but I could think about you and how much I love you and want you to come back to me. Even though I know that it will never happened again. You were the guy that stole my heart. It's to late to ask for it back. It will never truely be mine again.

I miss you

I don't feel anything anymore.
I don't like anyone...
I love you..
But I'm so empty inside..
Love me..

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Needless to say...I love you so much... and I absolutely miss you to death.

dsasdkfhskfka

Sorry if you don't like me looking at your things... I kinda sorrta miss you alot. and yet I know its only been hours. I have so many friends that will be there for me. yet i just want to be alone. I miss you. I miss us.. I catch myself always going on your profile to give me some hope that your on. I love you. I know you hate me saying that but I do...I can't say it to someone else. Those words are used to much so I try and show them to you.... I care for you.... I sometimes wish you weren't bipolar... But I know I can't change that so I accepted it... and it kills me that you're gone now.. Never to be mine. I honestly thought we were gunna get married when you told me... I love you.. And the sad part is I would take you back in a second. But you wouldn't....

...

I am honestly broken. I can never be yours and I know that. It hurts knowing that I can never be yours. Even tho it's only been hours I feel like I'm dying inside. I'm dead. Crying hurts. Laughing is fake. Love doesnt exist anymore to me. Any other guy is a replacement. Saying I love you. Those words aren't true. Because thats how i feel towards you. And it will always be that way. Why would I love anyone else if i've only loved you. School sucks. It tears us apart. I love you. I always will. Can't wait to show my fake smiles and laughter when all I want to do is cry.

You.

well it happened again. like i didnt know. i could tell... that you never cared. im crushed, torn, and broken but i wont show it. i could honestly say that i fucking loved you. still do always will. i'll be torn if i see you with another girl... i guess ill just have to put a fake smile on a show the world that im fine. even though inside im planning to ruin it. i wanted to be that girl that will be at your side... the girl that you always cared for.. but im nothing to you.

What happened to i love you?

You're a liar,
A faker
What happened to you
I love you.

Why?

You tell our friends a story
But when it comes to me its a different story
Do you love me?
Or are you using me?
I can honestly say I love you.
But can you?

I Don't Wanna Let Go.

Even though you don't feel the same way,
Doesn't mean I don't love you with all my heart.
I go through so much with you
Do you honestly think any other girl would?They would drop you the second you got depressed.
Boy I'm here...
I'm trying to help you through it..
Others say I shouldn't
But I LOVE YOU.And your flaws are my flaws.

When Do You Know?

Once the blood flows
And the tears start streaming
How do you turn back?
How do you fix things?
What happens if we cant fix things..
I will always love you...

Darling

I'm breaking
Completely in half.
What happened to us
You're changing
I'm losing my mind
Why why are you doing this
We were unstoppable
Now it's like you're using me..
Hunny..
What happened to I love you
And in two years we will be married.
I miss that..
It gave me HOPE!

What's Going On..

I don't know if it's because of your family..
But I'm suffering...
I'm dying inside
I love you..
And it feels like I'm nothing to you..
What happened to I love you
I'll never let you go
But it feels like we are becoming distant..
What happened...
You start caring
When I look like I'm going to cry.
What happened...
Please open back up to me...
I'll always be here..

Can we?

Can we go back to the old times...
Were we would snuggle with eachother..
Kiss eachother
Tell eachother everything..
When I was only yours and you were only mine..
I miss that..
I miss not knowing..
I miss having not to worry..
Ever since the day I told you..
It seems like you just play..
Play with my mind..
Play with my heart..
You know my heart has shattered before..
Theres still some pieces on the ground..
Would you care to pick them up..
Because you're the only one that can fix it..
Keep it that way..
It's hard finding someone else to help me restore it..
Especially since you're the only one that could.

Do I Mean Anything?

I sit here..
In the darkness. Thinking about youWhile you sit there
And flirt with other girlsI love you... But I MEAN NOTHING TO YOU!Prove to me that I mean SOMTHING!
And that you actually give a damn about me.I already told you I would  take a bulletEven if it means dying for you.Now tell me
Do I mean anything to you.

Looking Back

Looking back in history..
I found my darkness
We broke because of stress..
How could I make that change
You don't get it..
I'm terrfied..
Of osing you, doing something wrong...
I just want us to be happy..
Together..
For the rest of our lifes
It HURTS not being with you
I die a little inside when i find things out
I don't want any of girl in your life
Is that so wrong..
I know i can't stop you..
But it still hurts
That you hide that you talk to the people i hate..
Hide from new girls you text..
Can't we be honest...
I wanna tell you this..
But I'm terrified of saying something wrong.
I lay back and just shut my mouth..
Even though i wanna cry and tell you everything
I'm not so strong...
When it cmes to emotions..
I can't hide it..
From you...

Please Don't Let Me Go..

I know we can make it.
We can show them.
Remember... It's me and you against the world.
What happened to the cute? The I'll never let you go?Baby I only want you.
I can spend my whole life with you!But can you with me?Do you love me enough to show that you care?I know you have family problems...
But baby I feel like I'm nothing to you.
Show me I mean something.. Proved to me... Show me that I'm not a toy that you wanna play around with
I'm human after all..I just wanna be loved... But only by you.

Have you guys ever felt out of place?
Where it seems like everyone else is doing their own thing, has their own crowd, and are completely comfortable? And you’re there, feeling like an outsider. Feeling like you don’t belong, lost, and you just want to run away? You feel awkward because you don’t know what to do, and everyone else doesn’t seem to have that trouble.
I hate that feeling. I’m a shy person when you first meet me, so I don’t go up to random people and say hi to them. In fact, when you first meet me, it may be hard for me to keep a conversation going, and we’ll probably have a lot of awkward silences. I was never good with first impressions, so don’t expect me to be normal when you first meet me.
I wish I wasn’t so shy. Maybe then I wouldn’t feel so out of place as often.

please tell me

As the world drowns i search for you... no water can stop me... as the world ingulfs in flame i search for you... no fire can stop me.... ill hold you in my heart until i can hold you in my arms.. i want you and no one else...do you want me? and only me?

me and you against the world?!

 

It doesn't always have to be like this.

"the cuts may go away but the scares are always there to remind you."

Girls got to realize this! (reblogged)

If a girl flirts with MY! boyfriend

I’ll literally punch their throats, rip their hair, and just fuck them up period. It’s annoying enough seeing you with him, but flirt with him, hells to the no. You’re done with bitch, he’s my boyfriend, don’t touch him, don’t smile at him, don’t laugh at him. Don’t even go near him, he’s mine for a reason, and not yours. So back away and don’t flirt with him again.

this is why guys can’t be having chick friends when they are dating. crazy fuck bitches like this.

Piece by piece

You cant make someone love you all you can do is be someone can be loved n the rest to the person realize your worth it.

The Drug In Me Is You

"A part of you has grown in me. And so you see, it's you and me together forever and never apart, maybe in distance, but never in heart."